Allergic to love

It seems like when love gets close too me
or if I'm actually holding it in my hands
it let it go or find a way to destroy it.

like right now...I feel loved.
and for some reason it's making me feel sick to my stomach.
Even as I'm writing this, and I apologize before hand, I want to vomit.
Why do I feel this way?
How did I get to this?
Am I just one of those rare, one in a billion people that is allergic to love?

Is love to me like kryptonite to Superman?
Is love my weakness...but in a bad way?

And it's not that love that makes your legs feel like jello
or the love that makes you feel like you can fly
or even the kind that is so good, the whole damn world could be falling around you and you just don't care because he' yours and your his and that's all that matters.

But no. This love....this love is terrible.